oops, i did it again

yes, i just used a britney song title for this post, but i'm trying to add a little humor here to mask the helplessness, embarrassment, and disgust i am feeling right now.

i did so well today up until dinner time when i felt the urge for chick-fil-a - chicken salad sandwich, waffle fries, plenty of mayo and ketchup for dipping, and if that werent enough, stopping by taco bell for a mexican pizza and cheese roll up.

totally freaking disgusted with myself.

is anyone out there? i could use some support. some words of advice. encouragement. someone to be accountable to because obviously being accountable to myself isnt working. at least i'm burning a smidgen of calories by typing these posts, but it would be nice to know that i'm not just sending them into the universe. anyone???

i kind of want to experiment and put this blog web address on some random web sites and blog "publicity" sites to see if i could get any followers, or in my case supporters. or even people to tell me to shut up, stop being a baby, get over myself - a good kick in the ass. someone to empathize? not just about the weight, but advice/pep talks/reality checks re: A.

marco...??